Moving over to flying_piggies just to let everyone know to update their friends list.

sooooooo...yesterday the modem went completely. In a last ditch attempt to fix the problem, I reformatted my hard drive. It was for nothing, as it did not fix the problem....soooo....I decided to get it fixed and have a new modem installed. Luckily, my step father is good with computer repairs and we just bought a modem (for pretty cheap too) and he installed it for me. It was kind of interesting seeing the guts of my computer looked like. I saw where the videocard is at, extremely easy to pop out when I decide to upgrade...but I'll have the step father do it as he has a kit that comes with a grounding thing you put on so you don't zap the computer with static.

So....WoW is reinstalled but I have to reupdate my videocard drivers for 3d acceleration and such before I can even open it right now. Then I have to download all the patches and such again, so god knows how long it will be before I can play again. (probably at least a day.) I'm going through withdrawl....*starts to rock back and forth*

First and foremost, windows updates need to be installed. Then the video card updates... then hopefully if all goes well I can open WoW and start the long as download for that.

On the plus side...mr computer is sorta healthy again. Hopefully, it'll stay that way for a long time. God I hope everything just stays ok now. *sighs* I'll be online most of the day with these downloads and such, I can garuntee I'll be here though, Danielle and plan to hang out around 11am today.

Other than that, I was sorta shocked to see that Peter Jennings died last night. I can't believe he was 67 years old, he looked damn good for his age. Too bad he died, he was my favorite news anchor. (well, he seemed to be the one I happened to watch the most when I DID watch the news. The most vivid memory I have of him was on 9/11, I remember he told all the parents to call their children, and he was almost in tears on national tv a few minutes later after he called his children.) I was actually a bit shocked when I heard the special update cut into local news last night, weird.

So much for attempting to cheer up.

People around here are fucking pricks. My job sucks ass. All I've heard was a huge chain of bad things that happpened while I was away. I don't think there was one positive thing. Computer is acting up, and they want to charge me $40 for over the phone tech service. (hell no) Everything pretty much picked up where it left off.

Basically, for the past few months, I've wanted nothing more than to ram my head into a nice concrete wall repeatedly. Yes, I am that fed up with how things are.

Fuck this.

Stopped in to see my mother this morning. I haven't seen her in awhile so I figured I would make an appearance just to let her know that I'm alive and all that happy horse shit. My step father will be going to the Geisinger in Danville next week to be tested for some sort of tumor in his adrenline glands. (I didn't quite follow what she was talking about) Apparently, he's at the maximum amount of meds they can put him on for his blood pressure, and it's still the same as it was a month ago. Which is not good, it's still dangerously high. I feel horrible for seeming so uninterested in it, but honestly, he brought it on himself with the heavy drinking all these years.
I get aggrevated when my mother unloads all her baggage on me, but....I know that if she doesn't she'll explode at one point or another, so I think I'll stop whining about her when she complains to me about all of her problems. We all need someone to listen to us.
She knows I've been getting sort of antsy sitting around the house on my days off of work, and let me know about a temp working company (there's a lot of them around here) that I could apply to. Basically, you're assigned to a job somewhere for awhile, hence the name temp service. You pick your hours and when you work (so I could not work for two weeks straight and go in and work for a few days when I like) I do not want to increase my hours again at Lowes, I'm happy with the schedule I have now, but it gets dull sitting around my house on the days I get off. That...and lately....I've been thinking about my future a lot more than usual, and I think it would be good for me to work to earn some extra cash to stuff away in a savings account.

Next week will be spent getting everything preped and ready for the school year. I'll be heading back there in less than a month, and need to get all my financial stuff straightened out. I just hope I can get a loan that will cover my tuition and books. I'll be decided on the classes I want to take next week too.... I've been racking my brain on and off for a few days about this....
I'm done screwing around with my education. I've been very lazy with it and it shows. I brought all this on myself, and I deserve every bit of it....

Austin made me think about the nursing career I've been throwing around on and off in my head the last few years (yes, years). It's a three year program, tops, (it's technically two years but theres a waiting list) and I'd be out and have a decent job to support my broke ass. That and the job security is awesome...I'm pretty much garunteed a good job wherever I decide to go. bah this is confusing.....

No matter what I decide, it can't be any worse than my current situation. meh....

Going to see the boyfriend in Kingston Ontario for at least a week. Man...I wish the workday would start already so I can get this show on the road....

I'm so anxious.

Catch you all in August sometime.

Edit eeeee....... over $600 bucks on my car.....uh....yeah....dad paid it....time for some SERIOUS ass kissing. I feel so bad.... My dad took it to get inspected, they found that the front breaks were going, it needed an alignment, and the front tires needed to be replaced. The two font tires alone cost $170 each. (they are VERY good tires, you should have seen all the potholes and shit I went over) Dad told me it's ok, he just didn't want anything to happen to me since I travel a lot. That, and he knows theres no way I could possibly pay for that on my own. I'm going to try to contribute to the bill when he gets it each month. I feel so bad....*sighs* Made me feel ten times worse when he told me that I didn't have to help pay, he just wants me to be safe. I have a really good father, I really do.... and I'm such a bitchy leech.... I'm wondering what else could possibly go wrong....no wait...forget I said that....I'll jinx myself. I'm just going to shut up, and tomorrow I will have at least a week of not worrying about anything. I'll deal with everything when I get back.

Words of wisdom from someone who just HAD to have a car. Don't get one if you really don't need one. They're a very expensive thing. Car is the reason I'm always broke. (that and my own stupidity with having to have EVERYTHING I wanted three years ago) I don't generally discuss money with ANYONE. Literally. But yes, here we go, I work three days a week, make $8.73/ hour, and my pay is generally $330 every two weeks. (not too shabby for only working three days a week.) I worked that all out so that I could work the least and still be able to pay for my stuff. See it works out all good on paper, but then all this little (or in this case huge) shit comes up. Meh...I wish I could go back a few years and fix everything I did wrong...moooo

I know I could work full time..but Lowes works you to the bone. (generally giving you 40-48 hours a week if you're full time) And make over $600 bucks each check BUT They suck with working with your schedule, they are dicks when it comes to getting any time off, and well...the job I do sucks ass. I would go insane if I did work full time. I would get maybe...two days off a week if I was lucky. What kind of life is that? I'd have money for stuff but nothing to do with it. I would never get to see Austin, because time off requests have to done a month in advanced. I would never get to go anywhere, I would never get to see my friends, never get to do anything I like, because I'd be stuck at work. For example, the kind of shift you deal with are these:

You work 1:30pm-10:30pm one night, and they have you working 6am-3pm the next day. Uh...HELLO...ever here of a fucking thing called SLEEP!?

I actually started out at Lowes full-time. I could not handle it. Honestly, I got so little sleep all the time, that on my days off, that's all I would do. I was a miserable bitch to everyone, constantly got headaches because working Returns everyday is stressfull. Everyone bitches at you, you get treated like dirt by the customers, and yelled at by the departments. (I've learned to yell back, so I don't get it so bad anymore though.)

The general way of things when I go into work is this:
Theres someone at the returns desk that doesn't know what they're doing. Theres tons of returns sitting there crowding the place, no place to walk, I come in to a disaster. The other person leaves, I'm stuck there by myself. The only good thing about it is, I can generally get things in order pretty quickly now (since I'm so used to it). I have to call everyone to get their stuff. Awhile back, no one would show up, but now that I'm pretty friendly with everyone, they generally come up to clear it out because they know me. (apparently, they like hearing my sarcastic comments or something.) But yeah, it's not fun.

If it were a job I liked, then it wouldn't be bad, but I HATE my job. Honestly, the only reason I'm still there is the fact that they pay a lot more than most places like them, and I can work three days a week and have some money. *sighs*

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I wish I knew what the problem with my computer is. It keeps doing this thing where it says the modem is not present. Took me four hours of shutting down and restarting my computer yesterday to get it working again. Very frustrating. While it's working, I'm going to try and figure out what the fuck is going on. Meh....I swear, everytime I'm broke (well I'm not broke but I really don't have the money to spend on fixing mr. computer) something breaks on me. This month is tight because my car registration and inspection ($35 + $50) are due. I remember now, why I hate July heheheh. It be one of the most expensive months out of the year because of Mr. Car. Because I wont be in country until after the first of the month (err..I think better to be safe) I have to have all this done before I leave tomorrow. Hopefully, my father will come through for me on the inspection. (he took it for me this morning since the place I was going to go yesterday was booked up)

At this rate, I could care less about most stuff, all I can think about right now is the fact that tomorrow at 7 I leave for Austin's. I'll get there around 11-11:30, yes I'm excited.

Ah which reminds me....I can't seem to find the top to my bathing suit.....Tonight I'll have to tear my room apart to look for it. It's frustrating because I found the bottom.....so you would think the top would be in the same place...right? Nope.

Now.....to try and work on the computer...MAYBE I can figure out what the hell it's problem is.....if not, I'll deal with it when I get back.

I actually drew something last night. Posted on deviantart and such. That and went through my backed up messages and alerts on other peoples journal entries. I really need to keep up with such things....

Soon, soon, I will bringing back a few websites...I just have to get everything in order before I attempt it. I don't need it turning out to be a disaster. (as in looking shitty) My standards for it have gone extremely high....I'm out of practice....I really need to work on that.

In World of Warcraft (which is what has currently consumed my "piss time away around the house" time) I'm working on getting the Aquatic form for my Night Elf druid. I like her. But I also have a horde character, an Undead female, who I have at a higher level, and has cooler stuff. (like glowy swords!) But...night elves look "prettier". In between playing with Austin, I'm going to go in and work on my professions, so I can keep myself at the same level as his character. '

This week is going to go by agonizingly slow. I know it. At the end, I get to see Austin though!

In other, weirder news....
Earlier today, I was in the house alone, looking through my room for dirty clothes (it's laundry day) and all of a sudden....I heard someone call my name. It wasn't someone from outside, this sounded different...it sounded muffled but like...it was in the house...the voice was quite distinguishably female. For a few minutes after, I sat in my room looking around, with that weird feeling that you're being watched. I wasn't....like I didn't feel threatened...but it was just bizzare. That's happened before as I was going down the stairs a few months back..I was opening my door, and I heard someone whisper "..Vicky.." very quickly...really odd...it sounded like it was right next to me.

Those two instances, I didn't feel too creeped out and threatend. Now....when I heard that god awful moan in the hallway...that fucking freaked me out (especially since I KNEW I wasn't imagining it, my father heard it too) I felt threatend there...the moan was so weird and sort of inhuman. It sounded like a male with a really deep voice, but like...the moan was horrible....sounded like something dying. Then within the next few days,I had the sleep paralysis like thing. THAT was scary.

Actually...even though this sounds really morbid and weird, I think the recent "weird and unexplained" stuff that's been happening to me lately, it sort of cool. I've always been curious and interested in "the supernatural" and "unexplained" sooo hehehe! Though, I'm sure it'll always feel a bit un nerving, since you're invovled in something that isn't yet understood by people yet...you're always afraid of the unknown.

So, before I scamper off to work...I had a really nice dream last night. It's about freaking time!

This is cool, after today, I'm off again till Friday, I work Friday and Saturday, then it's off to Kingston, Ontario for a week. I'm really looking forward to it, I really, really miss Austin. The rest of this week will be spent doing something productive. I hope to at least hehee. Apparently, many of my friends are a bit miffed at me because they have yet to meet him. heehehe..I don't know about exposing him to my whole group just yet, but we'll see hehehe.

Now...if this day would go by quickly, I would be very happy. Only 11:30-8:30....so long....oye.

Talking to him made me feel so much better. I love him, I really do. And...I know he loves me...it's just hard for me to comprehend the fact that someone feels that way about me. I get to see him in a week...I can't wait...this time I get to stay for at least a week...You have no idea how happy I am about that. I love him unconditionally. I never was one for material things (like constant gifts from you b/f). I don't want gifts! I want to be with him! I mean, there's nothing wrong with getting a gift every once in awhile...but I've known too many girls who base "love" on that....and I vowed never to be like that. I never will be like that...it's against my nature.

I never was one to let my feelings for a person show so openly. I'm still getting used to it. But yes, I want to tell everyone that I love him.

(Sorry to everyone for having to read my tantrums over the past few days. I've been confused about many things going on in my life now.)

And now, I will get into bed and have sweet dreams about him. I love him...

Gone till further notice


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I've felt like crap on again and off again today. I have this really bad migraine type thing going on and the nap I took just seems to have made it worse. ugh... This day really fits my mood.

I'll probably spend most of the evening cooped up play WoW, and maybe pop in at my mothers. I was supposed to go out with people from work later tonight (something which will probably end in me making an ass out of myself, especially considering how shitty I feel today, migraine or no I'm still sort of down, Alcohol would just make it worse.) but now, I think I'm just going to stay home. 2 more days and I think I get most nearly all of next week off, since they cut everyone at work a day to make up for having to pay us all for the 4th of July. How sweet. (sarcastic)

Then again, maybe if I dragged my ass out and socialized I'd feel a bit better...meh...decisions decisions.

Anyway, I'm gonna go bash myself in the head with a hammer watch some tv.

Your Birthdate: July 2

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life. The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

How very very true....

Well...turns out I've had a fever most of the day. I think that's half the reason I've felt like shit. I just took some cold medicine, and I think that kicked in because I fell less crappy. My moods improved quickly for some odd reason. Good I guess. I'm not in a great mood or anything, but I think I'm done moping about being all depressive.

Anyway! I'm doing some spring cleaning in my room. I've decided to get rid of most of the things I no longer have a use for. This includes some of my once treasured game...err...thingies...haha. (my interest in collecting the merchandise has waned. now they just take up space on my shelf.)

Anyway, the list of things I'm going to sell are :

- Xenogears : Perfect Works (In great condition, I took care of this book and it shows.)

- Xenosaga : Episode 1 Official Design materials. (the white outer cover is just a tad bit dirty, but nothing major. I can take a picture if needed)

- The Art of Xenosaga : Episode I (was something I worked my ass off to get on ebay 2 years ago. it's pretty rare, only those who pre-ordered the game got a copy. It's in great condition.)



I'm going to put these up in 3 days or so. If anyone wishes to make any offers now, I'd be glad to listen. Figured I'd ask the people on my friends list first. I'm sure I'll find more useless junk as I go along.

haha, it's amazing to see how much of a packrat I am.

Just part of a survey I found somewhere. The whole survey didn't interest me, just this part.

Do You Remember?

Put an X in all the ones you remember... .

[x] Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
[x] Fraggle Rock
[x] G.I. Joe
[x] Are You Afraid of the Dark?
[x] Secret World of Alex Mack
[x] Punky Brewster
[ ] Bug Juice - Haha, Kool-Aid. :D
[x] Nightmare Before Christmas
[ ] Welcome Freshman
[ ] Space Cases
[ ] Roundhouse
[x] The Muppet Show
[x] Muppet Babies - GREAT cartoon.
[x] Eureka's Castle
[x] Salute Your Shorts
[x] Legends of the Hidden Temple
[ ] You Can't Do That On Television
[X] G.U.T.S.
[x] What Would You Do?
[ ] Double Dare
[x] Rocko's Modern Life
[x] All That
[x] Ren and Stimpy
[x] Clarissa Explains It All
[ ] The Torklesons
[x] The Adventures of Pete and Pete
[x] Stick Stickley Write to me, Stick Stickley, PO Box 963,
NYC, NY State, 10108
[x] Goodburger
[x] Angry Beavers
[x] Hey Arnold!
[x] AAAAH! Real Monsters
[x] Tiny Toons
[x] Animaniacs
[x] Pinky and the Brain
[x] The Babysitter's Club
[ ] Underdog
[ ] Kablam!
[x] Gullah Gullah Island
[x] Richard Scarry
[ ] Dumbo's Circus
[ ] Ocean Girl
[x] Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
[ ] Snick Snacks
[ ] Dunkaroos
[x] SNICK
[ ] Koala Yummies
[x] Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?
[ ] Nick Magazine
[x] The Goonies
[ ] Ernest Movies
[ ] Radio Flyer
[ ] Disney Watchers
[ ] Adventures in Wonderland
[x] Homeward Bound
[ ] The Adventures of Yellow Dog
[x] Milo and Otis
[x] Neverending Story
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
[x] The Lion King
[ ] Labyrinth
[x] 101 Dalmations
[ ] The Secret Garden
[ ] Pete's Dragon
[ ] Hocus Pocus
[ ] Secret of Roan Inish
[x] Land Before Time
[x] Dinosaurs
[x] Fern Gully
[x] Secret of NIMH
[x] Gummi Bears
[x] Care Bears
[x] My Little Pony
[x] Black Beauty
[x] Rainbow Brite
[x] Lady Lovely Locks
[ ] Candyland
[x] Sorry!
[x] Trouble
[x] Don't Wake Daddy
[x] Mousetrap
[x] Jenga
[x] Don't Break the Ice
[x] Hungry Hungry Hippos
[ ] Pretty Pretty Princess
[ ] Tinker Toys
[x] Cooties
[ ] The castles that made tea sets
[x] Polly Pocket
[ ] Hypercolor T-Shirts
[x] Lite Brite
[ ] Sky Dancers
[x] Scrunchies
[x] Side Ponytails
[x] Stirrup Pants
[x] Jellies
[ ] Saddle Shoes
[x] Barbies
[x] Beanie Babies
[x] Tamagotchies
[x] Yo-Yos
[x] duncans
[ ] Choose Your Own Adventure
[x] Pogs
[x] Goosebumps
[ ] Magic Attic Club
[ ] American Girl
[x] Island of the Blue Dolphin
[x] Saved By The Bell
[x] Full House
[x] Step By Step
[x] TGIF on ABC
[x] Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
[x] Boy Meets World
[x] Clueless
[ ] Mork and Mindy
[x] Simpsons
[x] Flipper
[x] Growing Pains
[x] Family Ties
[x] Titanic
[ ] Felix The Cat: The Movie
[x] Jonathan Taylor Thomas
[x] Home Improvement
[x] Tom and Huck
[ ] My Brother and Me
[x] Kenan and Kel
[x] Hanson
[x] Inspector Gadget
[x] Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
[x] Power Rangers
[x] Hot Wheels
[x] Creepy Crawlers
[x] Easy Bake Oven
[x] Flower Making Kits
[x] Wild and Crazy Kids
[x] Playdough McDonald's Sets
[ ] Animorphs
[ ] Rainbow Fish
[ ] If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
[ ] Bailey School Kids
[ ] Wayside School
[ ] Mrs. Piggle Wiggle
[x] Boxcar Kids
[ ] Ramona Quimby
[ ] Amber Brown
[x] Allegra's Window
[x] 3-2-1 Contact
[x] Spice Girls
[ ] The brave little toaster
[x] One Saturday Morning on ABC
[x] Transformers
[ ] Spice Girls suckers
[x] Wayne’s World
[x] The dancing baby OOGACHACA OOGACHACA
[x] Nancy Drew novels
[x] Catdog
[ ] Shamomo the cat
[x] Captain Planet
[ ] Face

So I'm working on finishing two projects, and starting my last project tonight. (for Color and Design). The gift wrapping/card/bag thing is almost done. Though i'm going to do the bag over cause I'm not very satisfied with it.

The next one is a collage of like 10 pictures of one theme.

The last is one of three things. (I don't feel like going over them all) I picked this one where you put different symbols and object that reflect something about a person. (it can be someone famous, or yourself, I'm doing myself.) This is actually going to be quite interesting. (Though with the mood I'm in, it's liable to turn out morbid and gorey...) They go into this space that's shaped like a painters pallet.
I'm doing mine really large, simply because I want to stick a lot in there. I'm going to base most of this around the supernatural and my own weird ass dreams. We'll see how this goes.

I'll be around doing that most of the night, so if you happen to message me and I don't reply, don't get offended, I probably have the volume down so I can concentrate.

Speaking of being offended, I'm getting really sick of being ignored by everyone. meh.. Sorry I'm so fucking boring and don't act like a fucking airheaded bimbo. I'm half tempted to go into hermit mode and ignore everyone again like I did most of last year. That and a bunch of other things are still pissing me off. It's hard for me to get over stuff, sorry people, that's just how I am.

I'm sick of being in a bad mood when there is not particular set reason to be, there are many small things that have been festering (good word for it) but not one big thing. I'd rather the one big thing over the hundred small things.

Bah, I don't give a shit anymore.

I almost hit a Turkey today. YES, A TURKEY! (this is not a joke)

http://febronia.deviantart.com/

Added some pictures I took today.

For anyone who cares, my primary e-mail is now frei14@hotmail.com
Don't e-mail the other ones.

The Market Street bridge (the one with the big eagles on it) is now closed, they have the flood gates up. The Susquehanna is supposed to crest at 41 ft....this is gonna be close. I wonder if it'll go over it's banks? I'm on high ground so it wont effect me much, worse case scenario for me would be me watching people float by in boats at the bottom of